Back at Square One

Life doesn’t always happen the way you’d expect.

Life doesn’t ever happen the way you’d expect.

When I wrote my last update, the year was half over, and I was hoping that I could regroup for the next six months.

When I wrote my last update, I was in the midst of planning and implementing all of our orientation programming.

When I wrote my last update, I worked in an office with three full-time employees.

When I wrote my last update, I was intending on starting my master’s this fall.

Then my co-worker decided to leave the office to go to grad school this fall. My supervisor took another job at the university and left a few weeks before orientation. Orientation happened. I changed my mind about my master’s degree. We launched a new transition program. More orientation happened.

Life did not go as I had planned.

And so I haven’t been writing. I haven’t been running. I haven’t been engaged in the community, or working on my personal projects, or anything of the sort. I’ve been ensuring the work happens at work, and coming home and watching Netflix. How’s that for honesty?

But I’ve also had a three week vacation. I’ve biked the coast in Victoria, surfed in Tofino, mountain-climbed in Vancouver, and hiked in Whistler. I’ve escaped from the office and spent a lot (a LOT) of time by myself- and WITH myself. And what I’ve learned is that what I want from my life is what I’ve always wanted, and what I’ve always set out to have.

So here we are again. Back at square one.

But this time, I feel different. I feel clearer, more determined, more relaxed, and more confident. I’m ready to go.

Going, going, gone.

Featured image by Frak Lopez on Unsplash

Nicole Crozier

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