Give Yourself Some Credit

Last month, I fired myself after determining that I had made limited progress towards any of my goals. After sharing the post online, an internet friend of mine commented that I may actually be doing more than I’m giving myself credit for, and tried to un-fire me.

My friend is not wrong, but he’s not entirely right either. He’s right about the fact that, in my blog post, I didn’t give myself much credit for the things that I did accomplish. But what he likely doesn’t know is that the amount of credit I give myself in a blog post is often different than the amount of credit I give myself in real life. I’m harsher in writing than I am in reality. It’s easier to write in black and white than it is to write in shades of grey.

When looking back on any given month, the progress I have made towards my goals, towards my ‘dream life’, is never as great as I would ideally like. But that’s okay. The reality is, if I did spend an entire month going full steam ahead in every area, I would probably hate my life. I’d be exhausted, grumpy, and unhappy.

‘Hustle culture’ is all the rage these days, but I’m not built to be a hustler. I need downtime in order to make it through the week. Being ‘on’ all the time, to me, is extremely draining. Which means a life in which I am constantly moving on to the next task on my list, the next project, the next goal, isn’t really the life I want.

But on the flip side, I do have things, outside-of-work things, that I want to do and accomplish. As much as I don’t want my entire life to be driven by hustle, I also don’t want it to be spent mindlessly scrolling through Twitter or watching episode after episode of Grey’s Anatomy for the third time.

I want to be able to find the balance- a balance that makes me feel productive, makes me feel happy, but also still allows me to have downtime to rest and relax. I genuinely enjoy writing, running, and volunteer work, but it’s always so easy to just say “I’ll do it tomorrow”, and then to repeat that line over and over again until I get to the end of the year and realize that I never did it, never did any of the things I was hoping to do over the course of the year. That’s the situation I want to avoid. That’s why I create goals, and why I write these posts on a monthly basis. I want to ensure that I’m catching myself when I’m playing the “I’ll do it tomorrow” game, and I want to make sure the things that I want to do, the things that are important to me, but not urgent, are not forgotten and cast aside.

Most months, if not all months, I make small progress in some areas, and no progress in others. And while I may be hard on myself in the blog posts, in reality, I’m simply using writing as an opportunity to remind myself of what I want, and as an opportunity to realign my life. I choose to write in the black and the white, because I believe that complacency lies in the grey

So here’s to another kick in the pants, and another chance at realignment.

Featured image by Alex on Unsplash

Nicole Crozier

One thought on “Give Yourself Some Credit

  1. Howdy Nicole,

    This is a fantastic post! I really resonate with the progress towards our ‘dream life’ and how it is never as great as we would ideally like. I appreciate the portion about creating goals which keep you aligned and I do agree, we must all avoid the “I’ll do it tomorrow” philosophy.

    Thank you for sharing your story, and as a result of this post, I have set some awesome goals for tomorrow that will give me another chance at realignment and fulfillment.

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